There will be a delay in posting as I got snatched few days back and my mobile phone LCD cracked into million pieces. Till I get a new one, there won't be any photos..Sorry guys, just not a good month for me.
You lost someone you care
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
~From a headstone in Ireland
I was on emergency leave for whole of last week due to my uncle's funeral. I lost someone who used to be very close to me like a father. I basically grew up with him and he held me when I was a baby. Losing him was a big thing for the whole family. He used to be a jolly type of person, someone who has his own beliefs. He treats his nephews and nieces like his own children. Seeing him laying on the bed and unable to help and look lifeless break our heart. At least now, he is in better place.
Being strong means able to let go
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home again.
~Author Unknown
Life is short. If you live your life full with love and with passion, even when you pass on, you will have no regrets. The only thing in the world that you can't change or run away from is DEATH and it is something you have to accept. There is no such thing as the Well of Forever Living. Losing someone close to you dearly or losing someone you love indeed put a dot in your life at that moment. You start to imagine life without that person. You imagine what will the future be like. Occasions without the person you always see. Things will not be the same again. Sometimes you might forget that the person is no longer around but you keep calling the name numerous times. All of a sudden you woke up and realised that it was just a dream.
It's hard and I never say that it will be easy. People around you will say 'be strong' which are words that normally be use when you're in an emotional situations. Easier said than done. Yes, life goes on, but the life that you will be going through will be without that one person. Especially if he/she has always been your pillar of strength.
Every of my family members (cousins, aunties or uncles) are like my own parents or sisters or brothers I never had. I basically grew up with them. They were the people who were the first to witnessed the first sentence that came out from my mouth. They were the people who teaches me what family means. Losing anyone of them is like losing my confident and hopes. The rope that tie our bond close to each other. We were bonded by blood and no matter what happens, I love them.
There are things which I can't control . When the time comes, we have to accept that it is the best and God love them more. The only thing remain in each of us are memories we created with each other. The memories that will be implanted at the back of our brain forever. Some thing that no one can take away from you. But for now, I'm not ready to let go.
I used to know him ever since I was born. Someone who carried me around when I was a baby. He's basically like a 2nd father to me. We joke and laugh with each other. We seldom meet but we both know that we care. How could he changed into someone who's just lying down on the bed, while I can't do anything to help. It crushed my heart to see such a strong and bubbly person end up into someone who can't even afford to speak, no more.
Someone to talk
Why do you want to have a partner? Why do you want to be in love? One of the reason is so that you have someone that you can share your feelings with, am I right? Correct me if I'm wrong. Sometimes it is not the material part that you seek from your partner but the emotional support that you need when you fall. Some wisdom or motivational words that you need from them. A strong reason for you to get up on your feet. A mistake that you have done in the past and that you want to change it, therefore you need your partner to be by your side to push you back up and face the world again but this time.....in a new perspective.
Sometimes being alone is good but sometimes it makes you lonely. Not having the right person to share your life with can be bored. There are thousands of reasons people ending up not getting married and you will go nuts if you think of it.
At times people ended their years of relationship is not because of monetary but it can be reasons such as not having common understanding or one party is taking things for granted in everything.
You have to understand that relationship is based on 2 people connecting with each other. It is a 2 way communication instead of 1 party working hard to make sure that the relationship works. It doesn't work that way. Every relationships are different, therefore you can't compare. Once you start to compare, you will end up not being happy. You will feel that maybe the previous one is much better than the current. If that happens, then trust me that it won't last and you will end up arguing every single day.
Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers.
~Mary Tyler Moore
Sharing is caring...or...it's not?
I'm home on a Saturday night. Not the first time though but it's RARE..You know, for me to stay at home, RARE even on weekdays. But I think the pace of slowing down in life is getting near to me. I'm starting to organize my priority because at this age, I gotta do that or else my life will be a mess. 2 things have settled (first was the car and second will be a surprise, not until everything is finalised).
Watching Tia and Tamera on E! Channel made me think that I want something more than just material. I want happy and meaningful marriage and I know it is not something where you can get it on sale in any hypermarket. It is something you gotta seek yourself until you find the right person to share the rest of your life with. And marriage is about sharing your heart and exposing your vulnerability to another person. Exposing your weaknesses and strengths with the other party. I'm not sure whether I'm ready on that part but what I'm ready is sharing my feelings with the man I love.
Looking at everyone that I know tying the knot also made me realize that it is time for me to get serious about life. Think about what I REALLY want . I've been living my life all this while but living just for the sake of continuing my everyday routine. It's not that. It's about running towards my goals, ambitions and objectives.
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