I'm currently on my bed as I type. Facing the white wall with the window on my left side of the bed. Switched on the table light and radio on my dad' s old digital alarm where you need to connect it to a plug head. Turn on one of my favourite radio station for bedtime, Lite FM 104.40. Most of the songs reminded me of my childhood memories where my dad used to sing for us, songs from the 80s and 90s and even the latest hit.
Believe me or not, the highlight of today was that I had the best conversation with one of my far away best friend, Adelyn after so many years. I didn't think that our friendship will last this long despite of what had happened between us*too long to be told*. It took me a while for her to gain my trust and confidence. I have never hold any grudge or what so ever against her. Just anger and worry but despite that I have never give up on our friendship. We've been friends since we were in A- Level but Malaysian call it as Tingkatan 6 Bawah and Tiingkatan 6 atas. I love her to bits no matter what.
Me, Alla and Adelyn were 3 best friends back in high school. We had sleepover, gossiping, crying, just name it and do things that real best friends do. Our relationship were like what you read in the Friendship Quotes over the internet. Based on trust, patience, respect and what ever needed in best friends. We knew about each other's past and character, in and out. Even though we're different in religion, we still love each other. Simple term is that, friends who will wake up at 3am and run over to your place if you're in trouble.
Soon after school, we kind of drifted apart but with the help of the cellphone *my first mobile phone was Nokia 3310 that I had to share with my mum* , we managed to message and call each other every now and then. Then, that 'thing' happened, once again, but this time, only me and Adelyn kind of drifted apart. Alla is the forgiving and soft hearted person, unlike me who is hard headed. So both of them continued but I decided to step away from Adelyn. She didn't give up but instead she kept calling and texting me but knowing that I'm a hard headed person, I ignored. But as I grow old and knowing that I'll turning to the big 3-0, I thought 'What the hell?'. Things were becoming better over the years. The 'thing' that happened between me and Adelyn were left behind.
So today, I scrolled my phone book and decided to give her a call. We talked for about an hour. A quick update about each other. Talking to her made me feel like we've never actually drifted apart, I guess it's just me.
Throughout my life, I've done many mistakes and there are things that I regret and wished that I could turn back time and mend those things. But you know, God work in the weirdest way that sometimes we could not possibly understand but there's always a blessing behind it. Well for me, one thing that I have never regret is having friends like Alla and Adelyn. Friends who will really push and pull you up when you fall, at ANY TIME.
For now, I just want to focus on what's important in life. Focus on who really care about you. People who will actually come to you when you are bed ridden, coma, or they'll be crying at your funeral, knowing that they have lost a wonderful person in their life. You're not living alone in this world. You have to be good to your friends, elderly, neighbours as well as your parents and family. Forget about things in the past even though it is easier said than done, but remember that you WILL always have HIM through your good times and bad times. He has the POWER to heal your SORROW. Don't turn your back on Him and He shall be with you along the way.