I came from a family background that has a very strong Chinese essence. So you can imagine how 'chinese' me and my sister looked like. Even for my mum (my grandma is a Chinese as well).
I use to wear the 'tudung' back in high school. Coming from a small town like Perlis, the scarf is compulsory in school. Regardless whether in sports or in academic. But knowing how rebellious I was, I did not wear it during sports (I was a sportswoman back then).
So right after my high school years ended, I moved to Penang to continue my studies and the 'tudung' was a forgotten thing until recently. To be honest, wearing the scarf full time was not exactly something that I can get used to. Some people can adapt their 'hijrah' into full time but not me. It has been years since I last wore the tudung. So I'm still getting use to the new style. I'll wear it on and off every now and then. I'm very happy that my family, best friend, and partner are supportive enough. But I know eventually I will wear it fully with a stronger faith and support.
I realized that my interest in cladding the scarf came during Ramadhan month, this year. It came just like that (sometimes it's hard to explain how you got the 'hidayah'). My 'hidayah' came in a form of me, suddenly interested in buying lots of shawls whenever I go shopping. I don't get the expensive one because in my opinion, wearing your scarf is an 'ibadah'. It's a matter of how sincere you're, it's not how much the shawl cost.
When you clad the scarf, you will definitely need to change your outfit. As for me, it's easier as I don't really have revealing clothes in my wardrobe. My dad takes this 'style' thingy seriously. His sense of style is that, you have to wear moderately. Not too much and definitely not too little...Hahaha. Few things that I needed to toss out was my working skirts (it's just knee length). As for my sleeveless, I can still wear them but with a cardigan or jacket to cover it up. So basically it wasn't a problem in term of my clothes.
For you to change, definitely morale support is important. So talk to your spouse, family or best friends about it. I believe that they'll be more than happy to help you. People who loves you will want the best for you.
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